you didnt sleep because. .
so now that i know.
you didnt sleep cause you didnt want to dream of me.
you didnt sleep cause you dont want yourself to remember me.
hais.
hmm.
you wanna know something ?
i dreamt about you last night.
and it was something good.
im not lying.
i swear.
and when i dreamt of you.
it felt like i was really looking at you.
deep deep into your eyes.
but,
reality has to spoil fantasy doesnt it ?
you tell me,
how am i to be happy ?
when you yourself is not happy?
how am i to even smile when i think of you ?
how am i to not be sad when i cant even hold on ?
how am i to get hurt again when i am already hurt not because of you but beacause of what i did to you?
i may have let you go.
but ive let you go on the outside.
do you ever know if ive let you go from inside of me ?
NO !
you're still there in my heart.
but you dont know.
you think i just
like you.
but think again.
if i cant let go of you from inside of me,
wouldn't that mean i still
love you ?
dont get me wrong when i say "let me go".
if you know me, i would tell you to let me go only on the outside.
but i cant let you go from inside.
my hopes - lost.
my faith - gone.
my life - died.
my heart - stopped.
my soul - searching for faith, hope, love, life and my heart but lost.
myself -
lost. hurt. died.Labels: its the only way i know you're okay, please continue blogging
