mummy dearest,
its mother's day.
and im sorry i didnt get you anything.
hais.
im really sorry i broke your heart so many times this year.
i cant believe i was so heartless.
im sorry for being such a burden.
im studying triple hard for mid year.
cos i know you want all your children to succeed .
and i know that it'll be the only thing that'll make you happy.
i love you alot.
obviously more than i love myself.
you've always been there for me.
when i needed someone to talk to.
to share my joy with.
when i needed a shoulder to lean and cry on,
you were there.
when i needed someone to tell my problems to.
you were there.
but i didnt seem to care.
ive always thought that keeping it to myself would make you feel better.
but thats not the way.
i really really really love you.
words cant describe how much i appreciate and love you.
mummy,
i know you have never asked for so much.
you and daddy only want me,nadhirah and nafiah to get good grades.
you have spent so much money on the three of us;
sending us to tuition and all.
i really thank you for that.
last year,
you allowed me to go to Peleggong although daddy didnt allow.
this year, you allowed me to go out with friends and even to bali.
but i betrayed your trust.
i made you believe my lies.
and when it all got exposed,
you got very disappointed in me.
i made you carry a much heavier burden.
and i deserve the punishment you're giving me.
i made you cry. i made you hurt.
i made you so so so disappointed.
im willing to change.
into someone better.
and into someone who you once knew was veryveryvery close to you
and would listen to you.
you know i would do anything to make you happy now.
i love you mummy.
semoga panjang umur, mama.
love,
NaqiahAthirah
