you know right now.
it feels right to say something out.
really .
i dont care if its going to hurt that person.
i dont care if its going to make me look like im perfect when im not.
because you know why ?
im sick of people who only thinks of themselves.
who thinks that they are the only ones suffering because of someone else.
wat the hell is wrong with you.
yeah,
i bring your faith up so highhhh.
then when i bring you down,
your faith drops like an aeroplane about to crash into the pacific ocean right ?
i dont care what the hell you think you want to say.
im sick of you & everything you want to do to yourself.
you know what ?
if you think you wanna make yourself suffer so much ,
why wont you just jump down and die?
you'll suffer even more in your grave after that .
cause me telling you to let go is making you feel so down.
cause me telling you a lie; to hold on, makes you feel lied to.
i dont want that anymore.
i dont want anything that has to do with you anymore.
i swear i regretted knowing you.
I SWEAR.
you know,
i wished that after my hopes were crashed on 14feb this year,
i wouldnt have to get myself involved with another person.
and right now,
my heart really regretted everything ive done after 14feb.
you should open up your eyes by now.
no one can change you.
you change yourself.
& that there's no use in changing for someone.
whats the use of changing yourself just to please someone else ?
when you are going to change back to your old self when that someone doesnt care anymore ?
isnt it the same as putting a mask over your face to hide your identity ?
you've got clever brains of knowledge.
but maybe not for the knowledge of common sense.
wat the hell.
i dont fuck care if whatever i say is fucking harsh on you.
you should think.
you have parents, siblings and friends who care for you.
but you dont seem to realise that.
its like you live in this world alone.
its like the world only revolves around you.
& whatever happens,
it'll only be you who is hurt.
is that it ?
your dad was being concerned by asking whats wrong.
and asking you to share your doubts or problems with him.
you walked out of the house ?
you could always tell him that there's nothing you want to talk about
and that you just want to be alone.
or at least just keep quiet so he knows you want to be alone.
you think you can solve everything on your own dont you ?
what are your parents for ?
they understand you better than you think .
what so wrong with sharing your problems with them ?
havent you done enough wrongs already ?
wat the hell.
seriously,
i dont know why im wasting my time telling you all these.
im not perfect myself.
but at least,
ive got common sense.
