im so tired.
hais.
today dont seem to be one of those fun saturdays.
not at all.
mummy was not cheerful.
she was really upset.
hais.
worried bout her.
she was saying things i seriously didnt want to hear:
"you all have let me down. if only i died right now, only then you all will realise whatever ive said to you is true. while im still alive,there's no use for me talking to you cos you all wontlisten to me. "i feel fcuked up guilty.haiyos.
since the day she read my sajak in the malay newspaper,
she didnt seem to be much happy after that.
my fault , right?
hmms.
im stressed up myself.
first week of school was pathetic.
maths teacher didnt come, mdm hamidah fell sick.
the change of form teachers.
that whole week really made me lazy.
& that sucks.
really sucks.
hais.
i dreamt about my late uncle yesterday night.
i dont know why.
i kind of feel sad this whole day.
whats the use of saying how i feel anyway.
nobody understands lah.
from A till Z.
there's plenty of homework to finish up.
gonna get started on it now,
then i'll do revision.
even if it means no sleep tonight.
its my punishment for myself.
ive made everyone suffer.ive been such a burden.ive not been working hard lately.ive disappointed my family.whats next for me to do ?right now, there's nobody who can make me feel better.