What a mess.
the only reason i cry is cause i care.
the only reason i think is cause i care.
the only reason im the only one taking this seriously is cause i care.
the only reason im trying my best is cause i care.
the only reason i listen is cause i care.
the only reason im still here is cause i care.
and thats what i want all of you to know.
i dont break down for nothing.
i dont listen for nothing.
im not here for nothing.
i dont think for nothing.
i dont take it seriously for nothing.
i dont try my best for nothing.
please dont get me wrong.
i dont do what you think i would do in this situation.
i dont wanna let this be the cause of my failure.
though it has been the reason for the first few months of this year,
i got over it. i know i had to do something.
cause i dont wanna be that way.
but, all i needed this year, right now,
is the support from all of you.
the support that all of you would give me
to let me go through all this.
thats all im asking for.
i break down cause im sad i dont have this anymore.
i know all of you still advise me, care for me, love me.
but its just not the same as before, really.
im sorry for what i did to both of you yesterday.
i shouldnt have interrupted.
and yes, im guilty.
who am i to interfere ?
but im part of it too arent i ?
i have the right to know dont i ?
why hide ?
why wait ?
i know im taking the big Os this year.
but do you really think by not telling me,
it would make me feel any better ?
do you ?
im just glad i already know.
cause at least now, i know what i'll have to face sooner or later.
believe me, i wont let this bring me down.
i may not have what i asked for.
but at least, im grateful all of you still care.
just stop hiding things from me can ?
i deserve to know, so does everybody else involved.
cause whatever your problem is, it will also be ours.
